An Explaination to My Classmates

I would like to take a moment to thank my classmates and our instructor for their inspiration and give an explaination; 


This has been a very difficult year for me. Sometimes there are just things that happen that we have no control over. I have found that through these experiences, my relationships with the remaining family I have are either strained or strengthened. A few months ago my foster brother was brutally murdered for $28. Apparently this is what a life costs these days. My brother was in the parking garage of his work minding his own business when the perpatraitor decided to shoot him in the head.The person who committed the murder has never been caught. Since Texas is a large state, they may never catch him. After a surgery and life support we had to take him off of it when it became apparent that he was not going to be any better. I can not tell you how beyond angry I am about this situation!


When I made the decision to return to school, it was because I am trying to redo my life. Grief has a cycle like so many other things in life. I owe my classmates an apology if some of my blogs come out as sort of dark. I am still getting my bearings on things again. This is a rebuilding process for me. I think what happens when you loose someone close is that you go through this period of uncertainty. I fluctuate between anger and uncertainty on where I am going. So all I can do is be vertical and breath and know that I will come through it someday. School is my escape from the horror that is my life right now. 

So when I post that I am have had to change my goals and other things it is because  I am still rethinking and rebuilding my life. I think I am trying to give my brother's life meaning by trying to live it because he is not here. 


I again wanted to thank you for your understanding apologize.


Dawn